How much longer I should keep this sickness of my heart over you friend? It's really hard for me to face it everyday. Why can't you just kill me thn you let me to be suffer like this??? If you don't want to be my friend anymore, say it to my face! If I didn't txt you, says I forget about you and I changed but thn when I txt you, didn't reply! You want me to do what lagi?? I don't know lah! It's really hurt me for many days I've been thru this problem alone. I am the only one to face it, and you know this right! Kalau saya ada salah dengan ko please lah bagitau. Tidak payah layan saya begini. Saya pun ada perasaan. Ko tau jaga hati ko saja. Saya ada masalah tidak pernah pun bagitau ko sbb saya tidak mau kasih susah ko. Saya tau ko pun ada masalah tp in the end siapa yg kena kasih salah??? SAYA!!!! Sama siapa saya mau kasi luah ini perasaan?? TIADA sebab ko lah kawan saya. Stress! Siapa yg tolong saya dulu?? Ko! Ya saya tau, saya sedar ko byk tolong saya tp jangan lah layan saya mcm ini. Kenapa lah ini berlaku! Bila saya buat salah, saya mau kasi betul ko langsung tdk bagi peluang. Semua salah saya kan. Sampai bila saya mau tahan semua ni?! Dari dulu lagi saya tahan. Skrg saya betul2 tdk tahan. Saya try untuk ignore ni perasaan sakit hati tp saya sudah tdk tahan. Skrg terpulang lah dr ko untuk anggap saya kawan or tidak lagi. Saya mmg sayang ni friendship kita and kalau boleh saya mau ni friendship sampai saya mati tp kalau begini lah style dia, saya mmg terus terang saya tidak tahan and tidak sanggup lagi untuk kasih happy ko. Thank you so much. God, thank you.
1. THOR
- I watched Thor on sunday and it was awesome! It’s even better than everyone said it is! I love Thor. I think I'm inlove with him. ƗƗɐƗƗɐƗƗɐ ☺♥
2. FAST 5
- Watched Fast 5. Dopeness. I love All the actress & actors but the most I love Vin Diesel. This movie sometimes really makes me wanna take driving license! Damn!
P/s: I love this both movie.
Damn! I am so busy this days but I never fail not to think about him. I think I'm Falling In Love With Him!
When I look into your eyes,
I see your love and compassion.
When you touch my hands,
I feel your strength and care.
When I hear your voice,
I hear your comfort from within.
When I smell your skin,
I smell a sweet sensation of bliss.
When I taste your kiss,
I know I am going to be with you forever.
No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change.
No matter what age you are, or what your circumstances might be, you are special, and you still have something unique to offer. Your life, because of who you are, has meaning.
Hi I am so stressed, frustrated, mad & sad about everything. I have work. Drum class. Church activities. Other extra work to do. Friendship going to death line. Everything! Messed! I don't know. I'm not blaming anyone here. I know it is my problem but What can I do to make myself better? Relax, take a deep breath? I am so stressed out and I don't know what to do anymore! Seriously! Why do I need to do things that I don't like to do just to help and cheer up others? Why it's hard for me to say NO and ignore them?? Now, I'm fucking shit mad to myself for making my own trouble. Oh God, help me. I don't know what else to do and think. Now the only things that I should do is go on and stop complaining. OKAY!
I found all this cool nail arts somewhere and I'm pretty like all this. Ohhh heaven, how I really wish if I can do all this awesome arts by my own self to my nail. :( OKaayy, I will learn it! I promise!
Here a few of my favorites Tee shirts since they soo simple and cool!
Now sedang minum COKE! Wahhhh, so fresh haaaa!
23th April; Easter Day.
I was very surprised when I read a message from him. I don't know what should I do because that time when I received his message I just wake up and I have no credit to reply him. I tried to find my mama & papa hp but I can't find it cs maybe they bring it away. I cried that time cs its really hurt me mad. And that for I immediately replied his message through Facebook. Yesterday me and Syl went to Jef house to visit him & his family. Jef was very sad. I know, I can see it through his eyes. Deep inside him, he was crying. But at the same time he is a very strong person. He know that God's love his dad more then we all do. As also Syl when her Kake died. I am very sad over the loss of their loved ones, but I do not know how I should help them, other than be there when they need me & pray for them. That's all I can do. I hope Jef & his family will be alright. I really upset cs I can't go to Jef house today for his dad blessing. I'm upset that I can't be there for him when he need me the most during this hard time. How I wishes Jo was there too. :( But I understand what happened between them. I hope they will be okay soon.
May God bless Jef cs he's taking his exam tomorrow. So sad cs in this very sad moment he have to go back to Malacca for his exam. Poor him. God be with him always. May God will protect him everywhere. Hopefully he will be stronger to face his day.
I LOVE YOU JEF AND FORGIVE ME FOR NOT BEING A GOOD FRIEND FOR YOU. Big hug!
09 March; Ash Wednesday, my girlfriend's grandfather had died. I was very surprised with the news. When I was playing the internet, I did not realize that she called me. When I was busy with the Facebook, I saw my best friend neighbor status is about something sad. I didn't think about it too much. I tot she was saying about something else. But when my best friend called me back and told me that her grandfather had died, I was very surprised and I tot I was dreaming. And I was like lost my direction and could not breathe because I knew her grandfather. Although I was not close to him but a sense of loss is still there. I am very proud with Syl and her family, because they are very brave to face a moment of losing her beloved Kake. I believe that they know that God is love their Kake. And their Kake death was a sacrifice and gratitude that he had gone to the place of Jesus. Amen. May God bless Syl and her Family.
I LOVE YOU SYL. :) Big hug!
There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.
Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away into the next room.
I am I and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other,
that we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name.
Speak to me in the easy way
which you always used.
Put no difference in your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without affect,
without the trace of a shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same that it ever was.
There is absolutely unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you,
for an interval,
somewhere very near,
just around the corner.
All is well.
My life as a Catholic in this year's very low key. I'm not fasting, I smoke. Sin increased, especially during the fasting month ago. I don't know whats my problem. Before fasting month everything went smoothly. But after entering the month of fasting, the situation changed. Problems non-stop coming. I know there are many trials everyday and I admit I was very weak and not able to live my life according to God's will.
Now the fasting month already passed. However, I still hope for my life as a Christian would be better from day to day. And God will give me the strength to face the coming trials. Amen for this!
And I guess it's not to late for me to wishes HAPPY EASTER TO ALL OF YOU MY CHRISTIAN FRIENDS. :)
God bless us all in Jesus Christ name.
Love love & love. Difficult for me to tell my situation. I met & in love with this man but it was not long before we parted. Very sad.Khairul, Nathaneal. Indeed, now I still love them, but hard for me to say how I feel.
Khairul. He was good, very caring, but there is something I cannot get on him. I know that not everyone is perfect but I don't knowlah. I can say that Khairul is a man close to my dream man. He's almost like Jon vu (my ex) but what I cannot accept, he is a Muslim. That's all.
Nathaneal. He is a man who is very good to me. too good to have. And sometimes I feel like I'm not that girl who is perfect to be in love with him. But I don't know we could not match for each other. God gave us to love for a while. Iam grateful for what God has given me.
Although now I'm knowing this person, but I still love with my old lovers as friends.
I love them!
A man who until now was difficult for me to forget about is Jon vu. I don't know why I behave like this. I cannot forget about him. And it's really makes me go crazy. I know, I was guilty for hurting him and I really regret it now but there is no use to me to says sorry for my actions because Jon vu now is much happier with another woman. :(
I don't know what else to says.
About Me
- An An Mande
- Please do not judge me, I don't recall you carrying any cross or dying for my sins.
This is me.
My Spartan's
..I'm just a little girl..
The must have thing.
When Gaga speak!
The roara eye.
What are you going to do?
Our love is passion.
I love Sabah bah!
Always the best!
My Jesus My Saviour.
My strength comes from the Lord, not from mɑn. I dont tɑke life seriously but I do tɑke Jesus seriously.
Prayer is the most powerful thing!
Sexay back!
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